I made plans to meet a guy (we’re going to call him “Dan” ok) from RSVP and I don’t even know why! Well obviously for a date, but we started texting yesterday after chatting online for 2-3 days at most, then all of a sudden last night; “Do you want to meet for coffee Thursday arvo?”
I was going to say I’m busy because well I’ve only seen one picture of Dan and it’s only been a couple of days, then he sends “Was gonna suggest tomorrow night but wasn’t sure if I’d sound a bit desperate or weird lol” I figured at least he was honest haha so I agreed to Thursday, I suggest 5pm, he can do 5pm but doesn’t want to show up in his dorky work clothes so how about 6pm? I agree even though I’m thinking who the fuck drinks coffee at 6pm and I’m going to be starving! Then he tells me he’s so excited, numerous times, that I make him smile and it’s so easy to talk to me. Ok sure I’m relatively excited so I say “Yeah it should be good :)” This morning I get a good morning text, even though I told him last night that I would text him, and a “hope you slept well”, he tells me he hurt his back so I was expecting him to cancel tomorrow, instead he tells me it’s felt better but knowing he gets to meet me tomorrow makes it ok. Sure I wrote “haha cute!” But right now I’m sitting here getting way too many texts from this guy thinking I’ve made a date with a needy woman.
What the fuck. This is DEFCON 1 guys! He just texted me now saying good luck with your interviews and my smile will be a huge selling point for sure. What the fuck am I doing!? Sure I like attention but I’m not sure if Dan is just full of shit, this can’t be how guys talk normally right? I wrote back “haha thanks for the confidence boost!” His reply? “I am really looking forward to tomorrow :)” I haven’t written back yet, it’s actually scaring the shit out of me. I’m trying to work out if it’s because he’s actually nice or because I feel like running far, far away already! Why the fuck did I go on RSVP!? That’s right, my sister made it for me, thinks I need to start dating again, but I should’ve just kept deleting the emails, or at least deleted my account! I feel like an asshole because I’m not ready and don’t want a relationship and a lot of people on dating sites want a relationship. I don’t want to string this guy along, at most I thought it would be a bit of a fling, plenty of people on dating sites just want sex let’s be honest. Why did I have to find a guy that is already texting me like he’s my boyfriend? I’m going to cry, he even has a kid, I’m a fucking terrible person. I can’t cancel the date because that’s going to make me feel worse, so maybe I should go to it and if he starts getting personal I’ll have to say I’m sorry but I’m taking things really slow. Then after the date I’m deleting my account because I feel like I’m cheating people out of finding love.
What do you guys think? Any stalker vibes? Does he sound too keen for someone I’ve never met? Am I going to be abducted and forced to marry him!? I think I’m freaking myself out, maybe he is just a guy that writes cute shit to girls, maybe he just wants to “bang”, maybe this is my emotional barriers from my failed relationship bringing out the fight or flight response. I know I’m stressing myself out too much, most likely for no reason, I mean the date hasn’t happened yet, it’s only texts. This is obviously a problem in my head that needs some looking into. I’ll try not to run away. Just relax. Too bad it’s too early for a drink!